sick

having kind of a dark day. my physical cold's gone, but have an emotional cold. i'm feeling tired and overwhelmed and wishing i could acomplish something or at least live successfully, but i am trying to make an effort to do something about it. i picked up a new flower essence yesterday, cayenne. from the repertory:
"cayenne flower essence provides a catalytic spark to the soul stagnating in its growth cycle. such individuals become overly phlegmatic and complacent, not really chalenging themselves with new experiences or stimulus. at other times, there may be a quality of simply feeling stuck or immobilized, unable to make real progress or change, or beign caught in a pattern of procrastination and resistance...Cayenne stimulates an energetic response in the body and soul, helping to overcome apparent blocks to progress and transformation. cayenne ignites and sparks the soul with its fiery essence. the individual becomes more awake, and more capale of initiating and sustaining spiritual and emotional development."

we'll see if it helps. it seemed like the best choice- my soul is feeling phlegmy.

but, i am a little bit cheered by the ph-silent g combo in phlegmy. i hope it really belongs there.