magic

it clicked today. kinda sad, cause it's my last full day- though i still have 4 halves, and i may pick up another along the way at the end. i don't think it was so much that it was the end of my stint or the end of the week, as it was what we were filiming- the dream sequences. the dodgeball daydream was this morning, and that was fun. then this afternoon was the were the world mind daydream- the same song as the short. it was actually kind of odd, because so far i haven't known any of the music, but suddenly we're filming a song i know all the words to. "i know not by what power i am made bold, but still you flout my insufficientcy, the more my prayer the lesser is my grace." the stage is magical. the stage itself is beautiful, with a cherub at the top of the procenium. and they've hung a blue green curtain, and "fairy lights" (which is one of my favourite britishisms) and a big tree, and a little "cliff" platform, and a curtain of cherry blossoms. watching timothy sing and the fairy boys dance, i remembered the feeling of amazement during the short, this is ME doing this, i will never be this happy working again. the aching longing of it. i would make movies, i would work with these people regularly, i would be confident in who i am and what i do and be paid well for it, were the world mine.