sunday

i really could do nothing for weeks, i think. i've done nothing all weekend, and still don't feel prepared to attack my week. sigh. i want out of my life, lighting class in particular. i guess it could be worse. i could be like l, who was forced to work a double today. with the first shift being overnight. so she got 5 hrs of sleep yesterday, went to work at 9 last night, was told at 5 this morning she'd have to stay until 2 this afternoon. then she drove to her moms to eat and then off to lansing. ratboy, driving behind her, had to keep callng her to wake her up. she called me, too, for me to yell at her. driving exhausted is the same as driving drunk! bad idea! bad idea!! i'm glad the lansing girls will take care of her now and she can watch the L word and sleep.

you can probably read all of this information on her blog. you come here to hear about my life.

today was a bit better than yesterday. crossed less off the list, but i did get out of the house. took the bus to andersonville to go to women and children first, which i continue to adore. i always forget how fabulous it is until i'm charging way more than i should. it's just my kinda bookstore- the new books are familiar to me- things i've read, things ive heard about and want to read, things that look interesting, books by my favourite authors... this doesn't happen much in the basement of the sears tower.

i think l should move to chicago and work there. it would be perfect. she could drive limo on the side. ch and i talked about it, and we've decided. so l, you gotta get hopping on that. i know you love the D and all, but really, we've got a perfect life all planned out for you here. and no one will throw chairs at you or expound to you all the ways they will rape you. we promise.

so yeah, walking up clark, terribly windy, two fags walking the opposite direction give me a fabulous snippit of overheard conversation: "so then when the color guard came on, they...." i do miss color guard. how geeky is that? stopped in jumping jacks, but all their overpriced maryjanes were velcro not buckles. good thing, too, cause i don't need to be spending money on shoes right now. then edgewater produce. no brusselssprouts. do they not MAKE them anymore? or am i just being too impatient? i thought they were a FALL food, for goodness sakes. guess it's more winter than i thought.

anyway CRAZY windy walking up clark. theres this hot chick waiting for the bus in a little alcove. i duck into the one next to her. she says i can share hers. it's this doorway to a music store, and there's art in the window. it's this torso covered in toothpicks. they line up at the shoulders and down the sides, cone up at the breasts and starburst in on the belly. it's facinating. hot chick and i make small talk about the weather, the art. she's got a cute little accent, she's from azerbajian i think. on the caspian sea, practically turkey, she said. she whines about her pants- last winter she layered under them, but this year, they are too tight. she weighed 110 lbs when she came here, and she weighs 122 now- that's 12 lbs she's gained. "psht!" i said as the bus pulled up, "you're beautiful now," and got on the bus.

she sat next to me on the bus, so we continued our conversation. she lives in uptown, sounds bad. she works on devon, was on her way to work. she's studying for TOEFL, and i'd give it to her- making conversation with strangers i find a great test of english. i felt so cool, flirting with the turkish girl- i was totally channelling ch and carlos. he is a fabulous friend made on the CTA. i kept thinking about giving her my number, but i never did. i can't keep track of the friends i have now, when am i going to build a new friendship? so we waived goodbye at devon and clark. i wonder if she'll ever see me again? i never see people i actualy know, so i'm sure i'd never recognize a stranger.

it wasn't on my list, but i made dinner. sweet potato and broccoli chowder, and grilled cheese and egg sandwiches. do i get points for that? i feel like eating is such a waste of my precious time.

srah's mix came yesterday, but i didn't get the mail till this morning. shit. i guess i really am behind. they're going out tomorrow, though. i should get working on that. right now.