"i'm not a invisible. i'm sort of just hidden. like a chameleon, but without the taste for insects." - elizabeth crane, when the messenger is hot
"why was fabulousness important? the world was a scary, sad place and adornment was one of the only ways she knew to make herself and the people around her forget their troubles." - francesca lia block, necklace of kisses
finally sorta had the dream i was hoping for. there was this big christmas party at our old house on church street. mom had someone's truck and it was filled with all our stuff- like, me and meike and my fellow ennumerators for the census. Meike and amy and jon had been out all day, but it was night, and everyone was crowding into the living room for the christmas party. it was full of christmas lights and people- all over the couch, sitting behind the couch on the radiator in the big front window, by the stereo, on the steps upstairs, everywhere. Nancy Mitchell, mom's roommate from college was there and a guy in a gorilla suit, but now that i'm thinking about it i don't remember where allie was sitting. i was standing next to mom and i told her i was going to miss her so much and then i started to cry like i never did in real life with her, because she said she had enough to deal with without trying to take care of everyone else too. and she started to cry too and we just curled up in a lttle ball on the floor holding each other and crying for a while. and i was thinking how it sucks we only have a few more days together, and tomorrow i'm going to have to take time to talk to her. then i started to wake up and remember that this is always something i put off in dreams. so i told her that i love her and was going to miss her so so much, and i asked her really quick if she had any advice for my future without her, and she started talking but i couldnt hear what she was saying. so i leaned closer and then she said that though she can see the future she can't talk about it. but she would be proud of me no matter what my future looked like. then i woke the rest of the way up. i never figured out how she knew the guy in the gorilla suit.