time sucked students

looks like ruth will be writing her ba the whole time i'm there. no different from being here- g sent me an email saying she wouldn't be able to see me till i come back from germany. yeah, her ba proposal is due friday, but her bf comes home thursday, so apparently once he's here there's no time for me between then and when i leave next thursday. grrr. not that i'm bitter or anything. come on, though. i'm a student, too. along with all these nasty classes i'm still working 30 days a week. and i'm making time for her. of course, she's making time for him. it's me who gets shafted. it's like me being too busy to ever get around to seeing jen. there's just not that drive. falling asleep sun. i realized that i was more behind than i thought- i had a paper due tuesday i had forgotten about. so after work monday i went to the library to do research and came home and wrote the stupid thing. i was so bitter. was gonna bitch about it here, but there was a problem with blogger and i couldn't post. and it doesn't get any better. still haven't done a bit of research or sketching for sweet water taste. haven't written the thesis and outline for thursday. haven't done a thing tonight but make dinner and read books. i suppose making dinner is an accomplishment. haven't done that since the caulflower curry i took to g all those weeks ago. it's crazy. i used to cook all the time. now i just throw my money away at restaurants or boil in a bag indian boxed dinners or frozen perogies or whatever. don't have the energy to do anything after work or school- not till i get a decent amount of sleep over the weekend. i'm gonna have to find the energy this week though. there's alot due before this weekend. and even more before my plane leaves a week from thursday. 9 days. god.