do you all like the green? i couldn't find a good purple that didn't glow. today's been hopeless. woke up in a bad mood too early- grrrrr construction! i managed to switch com ed and start people's energy up, but sbc is proving troublesome. also- i haven't cleaned my wallet and balanced my accounts since the end of april. so i spent some serious time in front of the computer, ended up not leaving the house for the library until 1. g and i were gonna get together today, so i called her and let her know my plans, and she said she wasn't doing anything today, so whenever i was available it would be fine.
i put in my contacts before leaving the house so i could wear my sunglasses, and that was my mistake, i think. i saw the bus go accross as i crossed cornell, so i was like, shoot, i'll have to wait 10 min. well. 20 min. later, still no bus. the sky gets darker and darker. the wind starts blowing violently. major thunderstorm. at 35 min, a bus comes by, packed to the gills, and there's no space for me. 40 min before a bus with space comes! this is incredible! luckily z called and told me all about the galapagos trip, so that was good, but i still felt like it was alot of wasted time. i'm SO not into researching my paper. certainly not into painting. but i find some books, drag them to circulation, and learn i have an overdue book that can't be renewed because someone else wants it. sigh. so i couldn't even check them out. what a waste of 4 hours! g calls when i'm in the lib. i call her back when i leave, and she gets a hold of me when i'm on the bus back to hyde park. she's just remembered a dinner she has to go to tonight. so will that give us enough time? grrrrr. i'm like, whatever you think. she says well, but i want to see you today! so i'm like fine, ill be right over, but how can you live this way? i'm such a planner girl, i can't understand it. i feel so shafted all the time. i don't think she ever calls anyone else up and says, "you know, i just remembered i'm hanging out with caitlin tonight, can we reschedule?" i just get whatever dribs and drabs of her time is left over. it's not like she's all spontaneous and calls me up and says we're all on our way north, you wanna come? or i'm bored wanna watch a movie now? anyway, she's sorted through her closet for things that she's giving away. i've taken her jean jacket i love so much, a little purple bag, a silk scarf, and her bluejeans that i patched ages ago. they're really tight, but i guess that's how the kids are wearing them these days. i haven't worn bluejeans this millenium. they're so thick and constraining! but i don't know. i think it's time for a major change, and working a few choice pairs of pants back into my wardrobe may be sufficent. so while there, i shortened her red dress straps while she waxed my hair. we were sitting on her bed, but my back was getting stiff so we moved to the living room. anne was there, playing hansen mp3s and asking spanish questions. the ceiling fan was on and i was so cold, and i was really hungry after rushing right over there. organic root stimulator products are CRAP and my hair's been bad since i've been using their locking gel, so g was doing some serious ripping to get the locks apart. and i'm thinking, why am i here? what am i doing? is there any part of this that is ANY fun? perhaps this dinner was a good thing. i'm so over that bitch. didn't even feel all funny inside when she was standing in her undies changing into the red dress for fitting, though did of course stare a bit. came home and cooked, and read the newspapers. i've been trying to read them up to date, but i never get to the bottom. so i've been saving wend, thurs, fri and working through the stack= the bottom was from march 20. so now i'm still half a week behind, but i'm sure now that i'm out of school (kinda..) i'll catch up. did i mention i watched beyond silence last night? really good. i thought it was just a movie from mick's intro to design class, but it was in german! it could have been from design, too, cause the cinamatography was beautiful. i wish i was patient enough to try and watch german movies w/o the subtitles. but they're either too interesting, like this one, and i want to know exactly what they're saying, or they're too boring, like rio des mortes, and i don't really care. what i would REALLY love would be to turn on german subtitles, but that's not an option on stupid zone 1 dvds. or i could just learn german well enough to not need them- what a thought. although i did find that when yelling at the characters, even though i was reading the english subtitles, i did my yelling in german ("nein! das ist nicht ein gute idee! in berlin, bitte! nicht in deine vaters haus!") instead of english. i love the feeling of understanding, even if i'm not, really. i wish i could subtitle the world.
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