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first, i gotta tell you:
I SIGNED MY LEASE TODAY!!!! i still have to pay first month's rent next week (when mom's check arrives) but i have an official copy- rock rock rock on! so excited! am going to start packing tonight, i think! i'll get the keys when i pay first month's rent, and can start moving stuff slowly until july 1, the official move in date.
ch came to look at it with me, and the closet is smaller than i remembered it. but ch thinks it's bigger than my current space, and it utilizes space really well. ch loves the kitchen, like jamie. all the built in cupboards and drawers are a real draw. did i tell you about the place i went to visit, where you opened the door and it banged against the stove? the kitchen was just the applliances lined up in the hallway, with the bathroom on the other side of the hall wall. it was really bad. and the closet space of a european appartment. my apartment is very american in the closet department! it has a german feature, though: a really big bathroom. i mean, for a studio. and there's a linnen closet in there. i do love a good wardrobe, but yes, it is sad that germans don't have good closets. i keep hearing about european kitchens, and i don't know what that means- small refrigerator, maybe? i can't believe i was able to find a place so quickly. kira, i hope your second look went as well as mine did. it was really nice to have someone else there saying i should get it. i can't imagine trying to find a place to satisfy the lists of 2 people! i hope yours grows on you- and how could it not, with a good kitchen- which reminds me- how did your black beans and polenta turn out?
as for JT, yes, that's how i started reading your blog, actually, cause you're here in chicago! it's funny, cause my flowershop is in the sears tower, just across the street from the french pastry school- i've delivered flowers to your kitchen before. i think it's strange we work within a few hundred yards of each other at such different jobs! thanks for your encouragement.
a, thanks as always. your comment sounds anne lamottian. it's always nice to hear that i should be more forgiving of myself, rather than what i feel i deserve, which is more along the lines of, "shut up about the bitch already! she's not worth it!" which of course i can't do. i tried to post your pic, but flicr's down. so everyone: stay tuned, pic of a coming soon!
as for now, lets just say i have 3 happy packages that i've been saving to open. and i'm going to RIGHT NOW!