26.9.04

end of an era

my last dentist appointment was saturday morning! all the work has been done, and now the've been cleaned, and i don't have to go back for 6 months! they were all excited for me too. but oh, was it early after i was out so late friday night! i expected the day to be completely wasted, but i actually ended up getting alot done- grocery shopping, quiche for dinner, those cookies made and wrapped up in tidy packages to mail all over the world tomorrow. all that on top of reading the newspaper and getting a nap! box of funky birthday gifts from my mom arrived. a strechy purple velvet beret to store my dreads in. this birthday has been totally about my hair. no word or anything from my dad. i think it's kind of strange. i hope it's all ok. over the rhine was playing at old town school of folk music last night. i wish i would have been more on top of things to go hear them. i wouldn't have finished the packages, but it seems crazy. i'm rich enough now. but the last time g and ch and i went to hear otr was such a high point, i would probably be disapointed if i ever tried to recreate it. ruth sent me a birthday card (and called, too, but i wasn't home) and she said my blog seemed depressing enough that it wasn't an upper to read on a regular basis. i'm hoping that that was the old one, that she hasn't read this one yet. this seems much more acurate of my day to day worries and activities- and i keep getting closer and closer to a regular day to day happiness, i think. so i hope she reads again and changes her mind. it'll make me more aware, anyway, which is a good thing. charles was telling me about a pbs special he saw in freud and cs lewis. he finds both characters interesting, esp. as he doesn't subscribe to either of their beliefs. he said it was a poorly made documentary, but there was someof the information was facinating. his favorite quote has become one of my new faves, too. it's what freud said the point of analysis is- "to transform someone's wretchedness into ordinary unhappiness." i guess it's getting me all ready to go to theories of personality class at 8am (!) tuesday. but if i got through last fall, this one will be much easier, right?

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

i think i'd rather be wretched than unhappy. unhappy is so vague and low. wretched is a stronger emotion that i can cry over and at least think about therapy; when i'm merely unhappy it feels to minor for therapy, and it would probably do me good. ~a.

caitlin said...

there are so many different catagories, too- black depression, exestential dread- i think normal unhappiness is so passing that it just gives perspective to life. i think unending unhappiness is a major problem in and of itself, not wretchedness exactly, but just as bad. keep taking your mustard, dear.