well, let's see, what have i been missing this past weekend? the snow has been disapearing. with my grandparents being farmers, i learned you talk alot about the weather in pennslvainia. here, people, i don't know. just deal with it. it's small talk. in pa, it'll rain after a big snow and wash it all away. it does't rain here too much in the wintertime. it's always humid and damp in pa, and here it's that way in the summer (though not quite as badly) but the winter is dry dry dry. it was crazy to me when i first moved here. i filled up a little bucket on th side of my radiator every night (ah radiators! how i miss them!!) and it was empty by morning. and i still woke up with a sore throught. some times it gets a bit warmer, in the high 30s, and the snow melts, then it freezes into ice again. but usally it just gets cold and dry and the wind blows and the snow just evaporates right into the air, without passing through the water stage at all. crazy.
i know i told you when mairee and dave were thinking about talking about getting engaged. we'll they're done thinking and talking and she's got a rock now. he's a nice guy, and there is nothing mairee has ever wanted more than getting married, so i hope this will be good for her. i don't like her walking around feeling like an uncomplete person. i really don't like that she thinks she needs a man to make her complete. but dave's a good guy to do it. she was a really good friend when she lived here. we've done an impressive job keeping in touch since she's left, although it's still not that much of a relationship. it's ok. i don't know. it's hard for me to connect too, since she's an important person in my life, but i can't come out to her. it's not my place to be spewing other people's deepest darkest secrets, i can only spew my own here. but let's just say she had a gay experience in her past which made her hate herself with such ferocity i can't imagine coming out of that without her hating me. christians can be funny. look at g. she voted republican.
i need to go to bed- i'm so tired. had to be to work at 7.45 this morning. ch has a new guy he's infatuated with. he's jack, and he works upstairs at the sears tower. when stacey was in town he first came into the flowershop to buy flowers for his soon to be ex, and charles practically shoved me out of the way to help him. stacey saw it and we laughed after he left. but now he's totally charles's new thing. he's really shy, doesn't talk much or make eye contact, and has a southern accent, i think it's creepy, but aparently he's straightforward and clear with charles. also, much to our surprise, he's into leather. ch gets a kick out of this. he says it's like a different kind of drag. they went to a leather "pagent" this weekend, to king mr leather chicago, who will eventually compete in mr. leather international in the spring. it's a crazy time in chicago. i hope to go out that weekend this year. g's run into them in the train with her parents, but i always seem to be cooped up in my apartment studying- there's nothing to go into the loop for. anyway, jack lives in the suburbs, and ch asked if i would open today because they were going to his house. have i mentioned before my feelings about being shafted for a new boyfriend? but he bought me lunch, so i guess i can't complain. he doesn't have internet access, though, so i'm going to anyway. i don't trust this jack character. we'll see how long it lasts.
forget me not (one of my favourites)- perceiving deeeper karmic bonds within relationships, ability to acknowledge spiritual destiny and intent of relationship
spinning- closer to fine by the indigo girls. just bought it on vinyl!
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